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Came to SC last Friday for Thanksgiving with the family! Just hung out during the week. TIME FOR FEASTING. Ate a lot of everything. Turkey, pork, dressing, broccoli casserole, homemade mac and cheese, slaw, deviled eggs, mashed potatoes, gravy, sweet potato casserole, and a cinnamon spice cupcake. Hell yeah. Thankful for my wonderful family, my amazing boyfriend and his family, all of my awesome friends, our troops, food on the table, and a soft bed to sleep in. Hope everyone had a good turkey day!

The place for the beach is booked! My friends and I will be staying at a motel in south Myrtle Beach. It’s not a real, real nice place, but we’re sacrificing art on the walls for being a step away from the sand and the nightlife downtown. I’m so excited. I don’t think that Curtis (http://teethoftar.tumblr.com/) or my friends understand how stoked I am to see them soon. Only two and a half more months!

One of my best friends, Chris (http://reawakeningtonight.tumblr.com/), just left early this afternoon. He was here in SC visiting from TX for about week. We had a great time! Kept saying that it was strange that he was here, never thought in a million years that he’d be visiting in SC.

We really didn’t do a whole lot this week, the highlights being:

He got his first tattoo!!! It’s an angry looking octopus. Got it done at Blood, Sweat, and Tears in Charlotte, NC. The artist’s name was “Little Jenn Small”. She was amazing. So sweet and down to earth. An amazing tattoo artist. I’ll definitely be going to her for some of my future tattoos. She was great.

We went to Carowinds Amusement Park with my younger brother, Thomas. Rode lots of rides. It was a great day to go, it wasn’t super crowded or anything. Lines went very quickly. They had a brand new ride called WindSeeker. I did NOT want to go on it, but Thomas talked me into it. It was my first and last time. After Carowinds, Chris and I went to dinner with my best friend Morgan and her fiance, Tyler.

We also went to see (finally!) The Hunger Games. I was SO stoked to see it. It was pretty much what I expected it to be and was happy that it followed the book almost perfectly. Some small details were left out, but overall, I loved it.

Had a great time with my friend! Now the wait begins until I can see everyone else again!

Haven’t really been up to a lot honestly. Still in TX visiting, I’ll be here for about two more weeks and then it’s back to SC.

Starting to plan for my trip back out here in June for A-Kon. It’s gonna be a blast as always! This will be my third year going. And I’ll have a costume this time too! (Other than my raccoon tail and ears. :P) My friend Lauren is making me the skirt and top that Evey wears in V for Vendetta when she goes to talk to the priest.

Check out Lauren’s site! She’s so talented.
http://www.laurengraceburns.com/

So, I flew back to Texas last Friday to stay for about a month so that Curtis (http://teethoftar.tumblr.com/) and I would have plenty of time together before he left for boot camp. Now, six days later, things have changed dramatically.

First off, he’s not joining. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t happy. The closer the day got to him having to leave, the less his heart seemed to be in it. And thing after thing kept happening, whether it be medical issues or mess ups with paperwork. So maybe it just wasn’t in his cards. Everything happens for a reason. And if, in a few years, he decides that’s where he needs to be, so be it, the military will always be there.

He’s going to continue to live here in TX even though I’m in SC because he has a job here that pays him well. We’re going to continue to save our money and (hopefully!) within the next year or so, move to the beach on the east coast. It’s a lot different than our plans were just a few weeks ago, but I’m happy with them.

You’re only in your twenties ONE TIME. This is your time to try everything you can, live anywhere you want, be broke, mess up, and have fun. So live it up.

Been sending in applications for a couple days now. I’ve applied at Belk, Beef O’ Bradys, McHales, Carowinds, and numerous nannying jobs in the area.

I heard back about one of the nannying gigs this morning and I’m going in for an interview on Saturday morning. (Nine in the morning! Ugh!) It sounds good though, it’s just one kid, Nathan, and he’s three years old. I’d only be watching him on occasion, but she would still pay me monthly. So that’s not a bad deal at all.

The one that I’m keeping my fingers crossed about is Carowinds. I had my pre-screening interview there yesterday and I NAILED it. The lady who interviewed me really like me a lot. The job I’m hoping for is either a character job or being able to perform in some of the shows there. The auditions for those are in February but the lady told me if for whatever reason I don’t make it, to PLEASE come back and find something else. She said they need more people like me working in the park.

McHales is also appealing to me. It says it’s a restaurant, but really it’s a bar that serves food. I met some of the people that work there and one of the girls, Chrissy, was really sweet. Welcoming. I filled out an application while I was there and the manager told me to make sure that I put down a working phone number so he can call.

I haven’t heard back from Beef’s or Belk’s.

Hopefully I have a good paying job soon! It’ll be good to have something to do.

In November of 2010 I moved in with Curtis (http://teethoftar.tumblr.com/) and his family. My parents and younger brother, Thomas, had moved to South Carolina the summer of that year and the apartment I was living in wasn’t really working out. Curt’s family graciously invited me into their home.

It was a big step for us, we had only been dating about six months and we were going to be living together. I was nervous, I don’t really know how he felt about it, but we were both very excited for our new adventure. I remember my first night there, everything sort of felt complete. It felt right.

Although I love Curtis’ family just as much as I love my own, I deeply missed my parents and my little brother. I went to SC a few times to visit and while I was there I missed Curtis and my friends so much. I was so torn between the two places. I was with my family on Thanksgiving, but I was not with them Christmas of 2010 or of 2011. Christmas day of both years was an emotional roller coaster. I was so happy that I got to spend it with Curtis, my amazing friends, and Curt’s family. But at the same time, I ached for my family at home.

Curtis and I talked it over in November and December of 2011 and we both decided that it would be best for me to be with my family. He would be leaving in March for bootcamp. (He joined the Navy!) So, even if I were to stay in TX he wouldn’t be there. I still wasn’t thrilled though, because I didn’t want to leave my friends.

On January 15, 2012, Curtis and I began our drive to SC. It was a lot of fun. We spent the night in Birmingham, Alabama, more than half way to our destination. It was a very fun and emotional night. I couldn’t stop thinking that that night would be the last time we would sleep in the same bed together until I saw him again months later.

We got to my parent’s home in SC on the 16th and Curtis was able to stay for awhile until he flew back to Texas.

The drive to the airport on the 22nd was heart wrenching. I didn’t want to let go of his hand on the way there. I was shaking as he hugged my mom and brother good bye. Then it was my turn. I could hardly even see him from the water in my eyes. Our good bye felt so rushed, as most things do at the airport. I couldn’t stop hugging him and burying my head in his shoulder to try and capture the way he smelled and felt in that moment. But we had to break apart and he walked into the airport. I could not stop crying. It felt like a part of me had been torn away.

It’s been three days since he’s been back in Texas but it feels like an eternity. We text constantly and talk on the phone a lot. It’s just not the same though.

I miss how he smells. I miss his arms around me at night. I miss him keeping my feet warm in bed. I miss how his lips feel on mine. I miss his strong hands holding mine. I miss his sarcastic sense of humor. But most of all I miss just being able to sit together and talk and enjoy each other’s company.

I’ll be visiting TX in March and I cannot wait. It’ll be the last time I see Curtis before he leaves for bootcamp. This is good practice though, seeing as how I’ll be a military girlfriend. I know that we can do this. Our friends and family keep telling us that if anyone can do it, it will be us. I think they’re right.

I love you, sweetheart.